how insensitive are you?

[aquacrayon]

just to let you guys know, i'm currently living in a homeless shelter. i wear clothing donations and being very thin, most clothes i get don't match my size although the volunteers try as much as possible to give me the right size. so there are times that i'd wear baggy pants and mismatched clothes and people would assume all sorts of verdict based on what i look like. one time i was wearing this jacket with a weird collar and the guys next to me ceaselessly talked about clothes that look like table cloth the whole time i was sat there. but it just shatters my sanity how i've been dealing with this over and over and i still haven't gained immunity from insensitive comments like that. honestly i'm jealous with people who could just blurt out unfiltered harsh comments like that because they don't know what others have gone through. sometimes i wish they'd get to experience what i have so they could open their eyes to a different kind of world and feel traumatized and permanently scarred.

[1337rice]

Are you sure you're not being self-conscious? You did say that the people beside you were talking about clothing that look like tablecloth, it could mean this...*link (https://www.google.ca/search?hl=en&q=poncho&bav=on.2,or.r_gc.r_pw.r_cp.r_qf.,cf.osb&biw=1680&bih=965&um=1&ie=UTF-8&tbm=isch&source=og&sa=N&tab=wi&ei=SyLvT77sNpD5rAHR74WPAg)*

[Drew87]

just to let you guys know, i'm currently living in a homeless shelter. i wear clothing donations and being very thin, most clothes i get don't match my size although the volunteers try as much as possible to give me the right size. so there are times that i'd wear baggy pants and mismatched clothes and people would assume all sorts of verdict based on what i look like. one time i was wearing this jacket with a weird collar and the guys next to me ceaselessly talked about clothes that look like table cloth the whole time i was sat there. but it just shatters my sanity how i've been dealing with this over and over and i still haven't gained immunity from insensitive comments like that. honestly i'm jealous with people who could just blurt out unfiltered harsh comments like that because they don't know what others have gone through. sometimes i wish they'd get to experience what i have so they could open their eyes to a different kind of world and feel traumatized and permanently scarred.

It's the world that we live in now - people tend to say things or do things in general that make you scratch your hard...

This may sound insensitive (LOL) but if I were you I'd spend less time focusing on what people are saying and more time trying to get back on my feet... If anything use there comments as motivation in your life....

The best thing you can do is fight and become successful again and when any of those people need your help remind them of how they treated you....

It might be spiteful but they'll get the message.

[aquacrayon]

It's the world that we live in now - people tend to say things or do things in general that make you scratch your hard...

This may sound insensitive (LOL) but if I were you I'd spend less time focusing on what people are saying and more time trying to get back on my feet... If anything use there comments as motivation in your life....

The best thing you can do is fight and become successful again and when any of those people need your help remind them of how they treated you....

It might be spiteful but they'll get the message.

thanks.

and not being annoying, just wanna let it off my chest. it just bothers me when i get off work and compared to people commuting on public transit, i look so stinky because i'm in manual labor that takes 12 hours a day and i can sense how other girls are giving me discriminating looks and think i don't love myself because i look like i'm not taking care of myself enough. on my day off though, when i could spend more time cleaning and prettifying myself, my day is much easier... i hate it. i wish i'm just being paranoid cause to me it's so real.

[Syne]

What are the circumstances behind your homelessness?

To answer your question, I don't think any decently educated person over the age of 20 would make comments about a person clearly living in poverty. A great deal of my clothes are 2nd hand as well, but I do try to make sure that what I wear is properly fitting.

I did once get referred by the EI office to a building that was supposed to donate suits to job-seekers. I ended up in this dark, damp basement of the local library, and ended up leaving with nothing because the things that were donated did not fit properly and the clothing was far too dingy and outdated to be appropriate for an interview. So I can definitely relate to how awful it is to have to rely on the charity of others. People like to think that they're being charitable with their used donations, but they don't realize that the same reasons they don't want to wear it anymore, might make sense to anyone trying it on.

I've always thought the government should take all the money they use collecting old clothes, and employing people to sort them and find appropriate homes, and just give people gift cards for one nice outfit at a retailer that's willing to kick in a subsidy. To me, that makes more sense and prevents people from having to rifle through piles of unwanted crap.

[HTTP04]

BoinkTheClown, is that you?

[sandikosh]

Homeless shelter and posting on the net?

[Corleone187]

there's always high fashion :(

http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m6bwmmzkJB1qzzqo0o1_500.jpg

[setell]

I'm sorry OP you have to go through this. I can understand the frustration that you go through and how you feel. I think you just have to hold your head high and not let others comments bother you. I know it's insanely hard but you learn to love yourself more and be happier that way. At the end of the day it is just looks and if you can climb yourself out of your current situation then that would be more of an achievement than anything! Work hard and don't let these crude people hurt your feelings. There are still a lot of nice people out there that will NOT judge you for your appearances. You would be amazed that a lot of these people making these comment probably haven't been dealt a bad curve ball that life can throw at you. :)

[yao416]

Sorry to hear what you're going thru right now. Do you have a Paypal account? Id like to send you some money.

[spike1128]

Sorry to hear what you're going thru right now. Do you have a Paypal account? Id like to send you some money.

We shall refer him to "UrbanPoet" to see if he can/how to get into some public housing and refer him "Le Loon" for moral support.

[RFDGypsy]

so you are homeless, but posting on rfd? But anyways, if you are really homeless, i would like to help you.. please pm me..

[dragon_drift]

It's life. People like to judge and make dumb comments and/or complain about the slightest things.

[kocoman]

Is it safe to live in homeless shelter?

[shoeab]

very insensitive!:twisted:

[kr0zet]

very insensitive!:twisted:

+1

[Royalsoldier]

Keep your head up.

Everywhere you go in life you'll find people who negatively talk about others (less fortunate for example).

"Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss other people." -Eleanor Roosevelt

People who constantly do this generally have a miserable life (hate their job, lack true friends, lack a significant other, etc.).

[koalorka]

Don't you have more pressing concerns than vanity and what strangers opine of your wardrobe?

I wear second-hand and obsolete military camo, I don't give a good goddamn.

[aquacrayon]

i want those people to feel my pain. i don't know if i'm incapable of hurting another human or an animal, right now i have morals instilled in me and stuff but when $hit gets unbearable i swear i just want people to go through what i did.

[setell]

i want those people to feel my pain. i don't know if i'm incapable of hurting another human or an animal, right now i have morals instilled in me and stuff but when $hit gets unbearable i swear i just want people to go through what i did.

You know, it's mean to want them to feel your pain because everybody have their own pain they go through that you may not know about. Why would you want to wish ill on others? That is exactly what you are wishing upon them because of a few comments some people made? You are as bad as them then as you WANT revenge. I think you should hold your head high and take this with pride. You have done nothing wrong so move on and deal with the cards you've been dealt with. You get bad cards, so what but continue and work at changing things for the better. Why cry over some things you may not be able to control but do work hard at changing the things you can control.

Btw this last post makes you look like an a$$ or you're just trolling the crap out of me.

[kingrukus]

Get a job and stop posting on RFD. Maybe when you can afford to buy clothes that fit you, people will stop making fun of you.

[webdoctors]

if I read in the Star or Metro that some homeless man started stabbing ppl on the subway or on the PATH, I'm going to point to this thread and wonder...

[GunnyHighway]

Just because you're typing from a homeless shelter via high speed internet doesn't absolve you from using grammar and structured sentences my boy.

Do they have WOW and D3 in the homeless shelter? You should farm some items for booze.

[Piro21]

People are superficial *****s for the most part, especially in this city it seems. I've noticed the same thing when coming home from work. I go in wearing my work clothes, but go to the gym after and wear my old clothes home because I can't be bothered changing back. You should see some of the looks people give me when I walk in with messy hair and my ratty shorts on.

It's because you're the 'other'. Most of the people staring at you walk out of their parents' comfortable suburban basement every day in their fanciest stuff and try their best to show off for each other, so seeing you walk in with mismatched clothing brings out the 12-year-old middle school clique side of them. New immigrants tend to get the same treatment because they wear hand-me-downs and such too. Don't let it bother you.

[Junigenmukyoku]

i want those people to feel my pain. i don't know if i'm incapable of hurting another human or an animal, right now i have morals instilled in me and stuff but when $hit gets unbearable i swear i just want people to go through what i did.

It's a tough world, there will always be inconsiderate *****s in this world, don't let them get to you. It would be a nice lesson for them if they can suffer the way they made you suffer, but it isn't going to happen. Let them just walk blindly and hope that one day karma will bite them back. Oh and this is a pretty bad place to post since most of the RFDers are ballers and don't like homeless people.

[aquacrayon]

I use my phone to browse. Sometimes, I go to the public library nearby. When I checked in to the shelter, I only had my laptop with me and my purse...no spare clothes. I eventually recovered them and rented a storage room to keep them safe. My case worker doesn't want to let me go yet until the housing worker finds an affordable place for me to rent. I have a job and I could live on my own but my work visa is about to expire. I'm saving money. I don't know what for. A plane ticket or to go to college so I can stay in the country.

There are moments where I could identify myself with those kids who go on massive gun killings because of rejection from peers and family.

[wilsonlam97]

OP. your english is decent. Get a good job and being on RFD only depletes your wallet! True story!

[wilsonlam97]

I use my phone to browse. Sometimes, I go to the public library nearby. When I checked in to the shelter, I only had my laptop with me and my purse...no spare clothes. I eventually recovered them and rented a storage room to keep them safe. My case worker doesn't want to let me go yet until the housing worker finds an affordable place for me to rent. I have a job and I could live on my own but my work visa is about to expire. I'm saving money. I don't know what for. A plane ticket or to go to college so I can stay in the country.

There are moments where I could identify myself with those kids who go on massive gun killings because of rejection from peers and family.

It seems to me that you may have a chance to qualify for permanent residence. Who should aquacrayon consult?

[SomeBodyElseisme]

OP, don't get discouraged.
You shouldn't care about what other people think. So what people stare or give you looks. You can pretend they don't exist.
Remember, people can be cruel. As long as you know you done nothing wrong, there's nothing to be ashamed of.

Let them stare, and you can stare back and picture them naked. Have a staring competition

[aquacrayon]

i just have a lot of stuff going on in my head. i take all the criticism that my family (especially my sister) to heart. like i'm not good enough for anyone and i'll never find anyone who'll stick around except once they find out what kind of person i am.

thanks.

[transitguy1]

I use my phone to browse. Sometimes, I go to the public library nearby. When I checked in to the shelter, I only had my laptop with me and my purse...no spare clothes. I eventually recovered them and rented a storage room to keep them safe. My case worker doesn't want to let me go yet until the housing worker finds an affordable place for me to rent. I have a job and I could live on my own but my work visa is about to expire. I'm saving money. I don't know what for. A plane ticket or to go to college so I can stay in the country.

There are moments where I could identify myself with those kids who go on massive gun killings because of rejection from peers and family.

You're living in a homeless shelter. Are you a refugee claimant or here on work permit?

How the F are you going to pay international student fees for college in Canada? Burden on taxpayers?

You want to go to college here just to stay in the country?

And you expect sympathy here?

[aquacrayon]

i'm on work permit, class D. it's still valid until next year. i was planning to go to trade school because it's cheaper. i have a bachelor's prior to coming to canada. i'm from a third world country though so not sure how much it's worth here. all the immigrants from my country who are successful here either have worked long enough (like to their 40's) to hold a professional career or they went to a canadian school to advance their education...

i made this thread complaining about snooty kids who have never dealt with tough real life circumstances that's why they could act so hurtful to some people surrounding them.

[aquacrayon]

...and i'm jealous. in a dumb waying of putting it, i want to f*ck them up and torture them physically and mentally. i want them to feel as traumatized and insecure as me.

[vero95]

why don't you just leave the country?

[aquacrayon]

the same reason why lawful (and unlawful) immigrants are here...we have a $hit country. we don't wanna go back. i'm still paying taxes so i'm not robbing no one, don't worry.

[ishfish]

...and i'm jealous. in a dumb waying of putting it, i want to f*ck them up and torture them physically and mentally. i want them to feel as traumatized and insecure as me.

But that would not really change you. Not for the better. Fantasies can be a nice release though.

So regardless of them what do you need to feel less insecure and traumatized?

[vero95]

the same reason why lawful (and unlawful) immigrants are here...we have a $hit country. we don't wanna go back. i'm still paying taxes so i'm not robbing no one, don't worry.

you say you have a work visa but live in a shelter. why couldn't you afford to rent a room? why do you have to wear clothes from donations?
what is so special about you and what did you go thorugh that is so special compared to other immigrants?

[aquacrayon]

my wage is $10.25/hr. i could rent a room but i find this the most economic alternative for my situation. i'm no special. *message truncated* i was in an emotional slutty state when i posted it. lol.

[deltone]

I really hate it when I see posters jumping all over an OP and referring to them as trolls and such but no offense but I'm smelling troll all over you and your posts. "IF" I am wrong, I apologize but seriously your posts smell REAL fishy.

For one thing, you claim to be here on a visa and so I would have to assume you didn't come here as a child and you were not educated in the English language so your command of grammar and spelling should be fair at best. You type most of your posts in all lower-case letters and yet in post 26 you are using proper upper-case lettering. You are using words that the average ESL person would not be comfortable using. Then you go on with all sorts of crazy stuff about identifying with mass murderers. Seriously, IF you are for real, go seek some help and IF you are trolling, same advice, go get some help. You are wasting your life and your time and it's really not cute or funny.

I tend to be very sympathetic with LEGIT sob stories but I have nothing but disdain for fakes.

Your one post with caps (overall your grammar is pretty good and not indicitive of someone who recently learned the language and your spelling is pretty much spotless):

I use my phone to browse. Sometimes, I go to the public library nearby. When I checked in to the shelter, I only had my laptop with me and my purse...no spare clothes. I eventually recovered them and rented a storage room to keep them safe. My case worker doesn't want to let me go yet until the housing worker finds an affordable place for me to rent. I have a job and I could live on my own but my work visa is about to expire. I'm saving money. I don't know what for. A plane ticket or to go to college so I can stay in the country.

There are moments where I could identify myself with those kids who go on massive gun killings because of rejection from peers and family.

[aquacrayon]

...and that's why i'm still surviving. there's not much sanity nor dignity left in me. it makes me sorta glad i could still assert msyelf in english very well in real life or i could've been victimized by pushers or human traffickers by now.

i'm not trolling.

and what do you think of non-native english speaking immigrants like me? i actually get the same reaction outside. some people wonder if i've been here long... don't know whether to feel flattered or insecure.

[deltone]

...and that's why i'm still surviving. there's not much sanity nor dignity left in me. it makes me sorta glad i could still assert msyelf in english very well in real life or i could've been victimized by pushers or human traffickers by now.

i'm not trolling.

and what do you think of non-native english speaking immigrants like me? i actually get the same reaction outside. some people wonder if i've been here long... don't know whether to feel flattered or insecure.

Well, I am not trying to be disrespectful but seriously, your writings are full of holes. You didn't address why you had one full post with proper capitalization and all of your others are all lower case. How long have you been here? How did you learn to speak English? What is your native language?

As far as my feelings about non-native English speaking immigrants. I am married to one (the best guy in the world) and I have a daughter-in-law who I couldn't love more if I'd given birth to her myself and she didn't speak a word of English when she arrived here so I trust that answers your question about how I feel about immigrants.

[aquacrayon]

tagalog is my first language. we learn english starting at pre-school... i used my phone on post 26 and it has word suggestion and a default setting that capitalizes the first letter of the sentence.


looking at kids here who have everything and complain about the slightest problems make me wanna cap them.

[deltone]

tagalog is my first language. we learn english starting at pre-school... i used my phone on post 26 and it has word suggestion and a default setting that capitalizes the first letter of the sentence.


looking at kids here who have everything and complain about the slightest problems make me wanna cap them.

On the first paragraph, fair enough.

As far as your last sentence, what do you mean "cap" them? I'm not familiar with that phrase. Also, you do know that jealousy is not a very charming trait.

[Drew87]

cap = shoot/kill

[deltone]

cap = shoot/kill

I kind of thought that's what it meant but was hoping it didn't. All I can say is OY VEY!!

[ishfish]

I really hate it when I see posters jumping all over an OP and referring to them as trolls and such but no offense but I'm smelling troll all over you and your posts. "IF" I am wrong, I apologize but seriously your posts smell REAL fishy.


It is most unfortunate that those who offered to help the OP are temp banned - such a cruel system we operate in.

All that is left are those that are suspicious - how unfortunate. It makes me so sad to be amongst them and one of them.

[Kunman]

You are over-sensitive. wear your california back pack like its nobody's business.

btw. can op elaborate on your background story? in a reply at once? I am sure many other rfders and I would be interested.

[vero95]

my wage is $10.25/hr. i could rent a room but i find this the most economic alternative for my situation. i'm no special. *message truncated* i was in an emotional slutty state when i posted it. lol.

when I arrived in this country, I took any job to survive. I worked in two pizzas and delivered papers at night
I was never depressed as you are though. I was happy to be here :)
... and I did not know English as well as you

[deltone]

It is most unfortunate that those who offered to help the OP are temp banned - such a cruel system we operate in.

All that is left are those that are suspicious - how unfortunate. It makes me so sad to be amongst them and one of them.

I know "eh". Thing is, I really don't like seeing anyone jump all over another and call him or her a liar but seriously, this whole thing stinks to high heaven and I'm no sleuth. I honestly think my 9 year old grandaughter could jump threw the holes.

I'll admit, I'm real bored today. Didn't have a lot to do once I took care of all that needed taken care of so I went through the posts of the OP since "she" joined. There aren't many so it wasn't a hard task but all I can say is that the expression "to be a good liar requires a good memory" kept coming to my mind. Nothing adds up but meh, not our problem.

[gostinger]

I use my phone to browse. Sometimes, I go to the public library nearby. When I checked in to the shelter, I only had my laptop with me and my purse...no spare clothes. I eventually recovered them and rented a storage room to keep them safe. My case worker doesn't want to let me go yet until the housing worker finds an affordable place for me to rent. I have a job and I could live on my own but my work visa is about to expire. I'm saving money. I don't know what for. A plane ticket or to go to college so I can stay in the country.

There are moments where I could identify myself with those kids who go on massive gun killings because of rejection from peers and family.


Well with this quote and others in this thread, I think you need psychological support or evaluation.