I'm screwed...

[matdwyer]

No lol, I was just having problems with my crappy computer -_-. Also, I didn't really expect to have so much replies, thanks a lot guys, lots of great replies. It's reassuring and makes me feel a bit better lol. Really appreciate it.

I'll try to answer most of the questions:
-I'm a guy
-I'm in Graphic Communications Management (didn't really wanna post this since the program is quite small, people in my year would probably know who I am, but...what the hell)
-the suspension starts this semester, Winter 09, so my parents don't know yet. If I was suspended since Fall then of course they'd know by now
-still dunno how to tell my parents about this, considered saying "I'll be doing co-op this sem"...XD but afraid that it might come back and bite me in the ass

Sorry, it's late and I'm tired so I didn't bother directing the answers back to the people who asked... Also, will post more info/answers soon.

Meanwhile I have to take care of OSAP/tuition refund:
One of you said that I'd have to start repaying OSAP now, but isn't there a way to put it "on hold" or something? Like for people who decide to take a year off? I remember seeing something about that...

Also as I said before, will I be able to get my grant (original amount) or will they re-calculate it and then give me what's left? Do I just need to see the people from the OSAP pickup booths about this?

Thanks again.

Sorry to hear

[Roseburger]

Well it is hard to tell your parents about this seeing they expect alot from you... and your relatives stereotypical situation. your parents are obviously going to be mad at you, but then again it's the consequences of your failure. if you want to succeed, you need to pursue with determination and confidence. only then you can succeed. you being lazy is lack of determination and confidence in yourself.

[florider]

if you really want to throw yourself into reality, move out, be on your own, be in a situation where you either work or don't eat. so then you work, and you'll hate the job so much that its probably motivation for you to do something and do better. if its not motivation enough, welcome to the highlight of your life.

I agree that living on your own, paying bills and being poor is a good motivator.

His parents don't seem like the supportive type so he shouldn't bother telling them details about his life. They will just yell at him and insult him.

[HockeyFan]

Don't feel bad. Alot of people I talk to actually had really bad grades in their first 2 years. In fact, some of those same people were on probation too. Now, all of those students are getting A's in 3rd and 4th year. It's part of maturing.

I was one of those people who failed courses and did poorly in 1st year. Did ok in second year but nothing to be proud of.

After that I smartened up, made the dean's list, won scholarships/awards, and am now doing my masters.

I think the key is taking less courses at first and really doing well in them. That means going to office hours when you're unsure of how to do something. Then you'll gain some confidence and can take on more courses.