Caregiver stress. Apparently I have it...
I’ve been taking care of an aging parent for longer than I can remember and the symptoms below all describe me fairly well.
.Signs of caregiver stress
Feeling overwhelmed or constantly worried.
Feeling tired often.
Getting too much sleep or not enough sleep.
Gaining or losing weight.
Becoming easily irritated or angry.
Losing interest in activities you used to enjoy.
Having frequent headaches, bodily pain or other physical problems
I’m especially very susceptible to becoming angry and irritated with them as I look at them as a source of my unhappiness and burden in life to a point where I understand and rationalize why seniors get neglected and abused in homes. I have siblings and I Don’t get much help if any because they have families of their own yet they are the loudest opponents when it comes to retirement homes, stories of rampant mistreatment surfacing due to COVID notwithstanding.
Just an hour ago they nearly caused a fire by scorching a kettle and filled the home with probably toxic odours it woke me up and immediate caused my eyes and throat to burn, like I’ve never felt before. I’ve tried electric kettles but they keep destroying it by overfilling it and always have this irrational tendency to boil even when they don’t intend to use it, it’s like a tick. I’ve gone through probably 5-6 electric kettles in the last 2 years. It’s usually the base that goes out from the spillage shorting the contact point. Just writing about it makes me angry and feel utterly hopeless.