Wow I just realized I lost ALL my friends from university and high school :(
I have changed a lot in the past 7 years. Im more independent and sociable now that I ever was in the past, I feel if i was who i am today back then in university, I would have a lot more friends but I digress.
I recently met up with an old high school friend recently and I hated the fact that i just did not like this guy anymore. He and I just were not compatible anymore. The meeting was quite long as i can hold a conversation but I personally did not like who this old friend has become. He had issues and his line of thinking i did not agree with. I did not want to be involved with him anymore. This made me sad but it had to be done.
College friends, I had 4 that i was close with. Friend #1 was completely my fault as i failed to keep contact with her slowly drifting us apart, I regret this dearly. I was in a place in my life where i was so stressed financially that i failed to meet my social obligations. Too much time has passed for this friendship to rekindle.
Friend #2 i was close with until he got married, I would call him every once and while and we would meet up. Eventually, it got to the point where I was always the one initiating contact. Friendship is a two way street so I just stopped, if he would contact me I would continue the friendship if not i would cut him out. I know he was very busy person with his job and wife but If I'm the only one giving its not a friendship I want to be a part of. So i deleted his number after 2 years of no contact.
Friend #3 was completely by the book. Such a goodie two shoes. I just hated being around him now lmao. He was also lacking normal tools i feel an adult should have in this stage of life. I dont feel like being a baby sitter. He was always smarter than me in university but he did not develop the proper soft skills and as a result his career felt flat. I greatly surpassed him in that regard. My last meet up with him was me trying to help him get a job with advice and resume tips. I did not get any followup from him or much appreciation. Fast forward 4 years he still working in retail (he graduated engineering with coop experience the same year as me). I pity him but he is not my responsibility. If he was a better friend i could have gotten him an entry level job in engineering firm but his actions tell me he didnt deserve that shot and Im not jeopardizing my reputation.
Friend #4 I lost his number. He has no social media lmao.
Fast forward to present day, I wish i made more friends in university. This realization makes me sad, terribly sad.
I only have a handful of friends now, all from work and one childhood friend. This is my mini rant lol.
PS. I am in my late 20s right now